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1234 i LOVE you!

Thu, 05 Mar 2009 04:16:54 GMT

Okay let me just say there are a few new songs I'm really diggin:

Plain White Tees - 1234 (there's only one word, to say, three words, for you)
All American Rejects - Give You Hell (and truth be told i miss you, and truth be told i'm lying)
Lady Gaga - Poker Face (and baby when it's love if it's not rough it isn't fun)

Learn to love it! =)

Anyway today was pretty eventful. Woke up to the pouring rain (which I love by the way), got up and made my morning rounds including going online, turning on the tv, and washin' up. Around 1ish I went to Costco to get some organic chocolate milk and calcium supplements since my doctor said my calcium and protein levels were very low. Then went to meet up with Ms. Catherine and Ms. Laurie for lunch at Fortune Cookie! Now that place is quite good. A health conscious Chinese restaurant .. that's an oxymoron just in it of itself hahaha. Under each item they tell you exactly how many calories, grams of fiber, grams of fat, etc is in each meal. And at the end of menu it tells you what to order if you have high blood pressure, wanna lose weigt, etc. So funny. After lunch, stopped by a bakery to pick up some cupcakes then headed home. Decided it was kind of boring to be home so I went to the gym, came home, showered, and now here I am.

More on my thoughts. For those of you in relationships, I'm so glad I'm finally at that place where I feel like I can give some decent advice from personal experience. ALTHOUGH, also from experience, don't always make your decisions and take actions BASED on others advice. hahaha you can get into a whole lotta mess. There are a few things that will help with any problem. Give it time, give it thought, and give it your all. My wonderful friend once told me you can't just expect things to go your way and so they will go your way, you gotta fight for what you want. And after you've done all that, if at the end it's just not makin' you happy .. if you feel like it's just not good enough .. then hopefully you'll be at a point where things are a little clearer and you can regain your pride.

For those of you who aren't in relationships. I have a rule .. follow your emotions more than your logic. If they make you laugh, if they put you first, if it looks like they're lovin' each moment they're with you .. do you REALLY need anything else? HAHA trust me you don't. There are couples still struggling to have those things. SHIT. AND by the way .. you know who you are. hahaha

Okay now go dl those songs and listen to them. hahaha love ya!

And another one!

Sat, 28 Feb 2009 21:05:12 GMT

Woke up rather early today for a Saturday. Gotta go see my dad with my brother in about an hour. Started my period! Yay! (not really) hahaah sorry I had to say it. So this week's kind of been hellish and boring. You know when you're put in those situations where you feel completely helpless. That's me. haha. Well not completely helpless, but pretty much. And then on top of that you don't know whether to feel up or down, hot or cold, hahaaha ohh katy perry. <- about the only thing I have, keeping the humor up as much as possible. =) Anyway all good though, I think we all do what we can and from there things tend to work themselves out and fall into their right places.

So I think I might start a dream blog soon. I seem to have weird and crazy dreams almost every night. Maybe I should start a journal solely for my dreams, ofcourse skipping the days when the dreams are for the private eyes only (now get your mind out of that gutter). Yeah I think that might be a good idea though, then I can look back a year and see what I've dreamt about .. might be kind of interesting. What do you think?

Okay getting some cramps, so cutting this short.

Bored bored bored...

Thu, 26 Feb 2009 00:17:01 GMT

Alright after months of not updating, I'm finally back! (Not sayin I'm stayin' or anything though haha) Decided to give an update on everything that's been going on. Graduated in December, got my diploma, now working as a finance intern for Smith Barney in DT Long Beach. On my off days I do absolutely nothing, which is why I'm here updating my blog. I wonder whos even going to read this stupid thing .. 1 or 2 random people and the boyfriend, but only because I'm making him.

Anyywayy wow I'm bored hahaha. I'm dying to go somewhere, do something, be somebody (sister act II)? har har you probably don't get that. Good thing is I've been going to the gym at least several times a week, and that always gets my spirits going. I kind of miss high school minus the drama. The one thing we had for certain were after school meals with friends either at soondooboo or pho. We had set breaks where all of us could plan trips together without conflicting schedules. Now we gotta see when everyone's vacation schedule is .. what days everyone work .. and work around late Friday and the weekends. Whack. I think once my internship ends, whenever that is, I'll take a trip somewhere on my own or something like that. Who knows.

Other than that, life's kind of great without school. No need to worry about catching up on reading, papers, finals. Feels kind of good. I had to get use to not needing to do anything, but once I did, it's been great. BUT i do find myself delaying things I need to do simply because I'm too lazy to get my fat ass out of the house. hahaha. No big deal though. Alright I think that's enough for a day.

Tue, 19 Aug 2008 04:11:14 GMT

Alright on the verge of the beginning of the end -- last semester of college. Hmmm weird. I'm super anxious to finish, start working (with an income), and figure out what the heck I'm gonna do with the rest of my life; but at the same time I'm sort of fearing everything I'll be leaving behind and that includes all the summer, winter, and spring breaks. =( In any case, I have my final for summer school coming up in a few days, a few interviews, ehh .. not really excited about any of that. ALTHOUGH, I am excited to get everything over with and enjoy the last week of my last summer break =)

Let's see a few of the highlights I had this summer ... my birthday! graduations, vegas, meeting new people, more birthday paries, good movies. =)

Okay I feel like stopping now. peace eazy breezy

Thu, 03 Jul 2008 02:58:20 GMT

Alright damn it, let's update this thing! Mmmm it' been quite an adventurous month (June, that is). Lots and lots of graduations and most importantly - VEGAS. So let's do a little congrats to some very important people before officially beginning:

Congratulations to Catherine Leo, Jeffrey Lai, Judy Song, and everyone else who graduated!

Graduation ceremonies never really meant much to me because my family was never really into the whole thing, but I gotta say .. after seeing many of my close friends transition from years and years of school to the real life .. graduating is really a significant milestone in our lives. I've been thinking about how blessed I am to have witnesses many of my friends go through this transition and have them be there for me as well. It's really amazing to see how much half of us have matured and watch the others continue to try to find themselves. I think I'm somewhere in the middle, but I've got time since I still have a semester left of college.

Aside from all the graduation ceremonies, we also made a trip up to Vegas in June. Ofcourse Vegas is always fun regardless of all the drama that happened this time around. I guess in the end you'll realize that all the bad stuff that goes down adds to the memories and PLUS at the end .. who really remembers the bad times anyway?
I've been trying hard to filter the past with just good memories which helps to keep me in a more optimistic mood, but sometimes I'll hold on to the tougher times so I know how to deal with the obstacles that WILL inevitably be coming.

On another note, I started interning at the Ritz Carlton, Marina del Rey in the finance department. It's been SUPER wonderful, the only crappy part about working there is the drive. But my boss and coworkers are REALLY fun and friendly, the work is easy, and the days go by fast.

Alright time to go - see ya later.

A very wonderful 22nd birthday!

Sun, 08 Jun 2008 08:48:51 GMT

Alright I gotta post an update on a month full of birthday wishes and surprises! First let me just start by giving a big THANK YOU to all my friends and all the people who came out and celebrated my birthday on the different occasions. A special thanks to the people behind the scenes with all the planning, you guys and gals know who you are ;D I love you much!

So the FIRST event was a surprise conducted at Catherine's house, and yes I was TRULY surprised. I thought I was going to Cat's house to pick up something she had for me, so I wore my ugly adidas sandals and even brought my dog hahaha. I didn't think much about the fact that her entire house was dark, because she did tell me she was tired and about to go to sleep ... soo I obliviously walked up to her door and as I stepped in a BUNCH of people popped out! I was so stunned I had to step back for a second and catch my breath hahaha. It was completely unexpected, but definitely a lovely surprise. =) Here are a few pictures:

(pictures courtesy of Laurie Dwyer)

The second occasion occurred last weekend. My very wonderful people (Jeffrey, Catherine, and Raymond) took me to Lawry's to eat dinner! My very first time there and it was dee-licious. That was a bit of a surprise too. Initially I thought I just going to have dinner with Jeffrey, but as soon as I stepped out the door I saw Raymond's flaming yellow car hahaha. Anyhow .. after Lawry's we went to Santa Monica Pier where I rode a legit ferris wheel for the first time in my life. It was super fun except it was REALLY cold and a little scary once you're at the top. Oh yes I must mention that we added a new member to my bed family - RAWR! Thanks to Jeff's basketball skills at the carnival hahaha. So far we have RAWR from Santa Monica Pier, Blizzard from the Cerritos carnival, and JJ from D&Bs. We all snuggle up together at night and tell bed time stories, but they get lazy so usually it's just me telling the story. hahahah okay that was a little scary, sounded a little bit like Catherine. MUAHAHA. JK Catty love ya! Okay here are some pictures from that day!

(pictures courtesy of Catherine Cindy Leo)

The last occasion was ofcourse on the day of my birthday. I wasn't quite sure what to expect, but boy was I in for one helluva fun day. Ofcourse the lovely boyfriend, Jeffrey Lai, planned the entire day and I must mention I couldn't have asked for anything or anyone better. First I was brought to El Dorado Park in Long Beach where we had a picnic by the lake and duckies -- ofcourse we had Albertacos and orchata (YUM MY FAVORITE! hahaha jk please don't buy me that). I wanted to stay longer but we had to move it along to get to our next destination. We were probably at the park for about half an hour and then we went to the Discovery Science Center! I was just telling Jeff how I've been living in LA for almost 20 years of my life but I've never been to that giant cube off the 5 freeway! Even though the museum is catered to kids and toddlers, I had a BLAST. It's one of those interactive museums, so we got to do a lot of hands-on activities. It was a pretty small museum, but there were enough things to keep you occupied for a good 2 hours. My favorite part was, well besides Jeff getting super shocked by the lightning hahahaha, the earthquake simulation! SO SCARY! I really felt like there was an earthquake going on. But then Jeff wouldn't let me go on it again unless I promised not to scream =( hahahah. I guess I was more of a baby there than anyone else. After we finished up, we went to get some Jamba, then headed home to rest a bit and get fancied up for DINNER! We had to relive our first date so ofcourse we went to Ruth's Chris in Anaheim, one of the most beautiful restaurants I've been to by the way. The food and service were excellent, and so was the thumb war ;D Oh yeah and I have to mention that the french vanilla creme brulee at Ruth's Chris is SOOOO BOMB! Luckily we got it for free because it was my birthday! =) Alllrrihgttyy so AFTER dinner we drove to Huntington Beach to meet up some of our friends who were having a bonfire, however unfortunately when we got there the beach people kicked them out because it was closing =( so it was pretty much a waste driving there. BUT we all decided to go home, get dressed, and meet up at TGI's. Jeff and I actually just went to my house to rest for a little bit because it had been a LONG day and we were both exhausted. After about an hour, we went to TGI's where .. yanno .. things went down. hahaha. Let's just say the night ended quite with a question mark this morning. HAHA, oh golly. Okay this was a very long entry, I'm very sorry. Thanks for reading all of it though! =) Okay here is a picture to end the entry

Thanks again to all the wonderful birthday wishes, facebook posts, text messages, and phone calls! And thanks to all the wonderful people who made this birthday one of the bests yet! =) I LOVE YA GUYS!

Meet Joe Black

Sun, 18 May 2008 19:40:13 GMT

I woke up this morning to a VERY bad dream by the way, turned on the tv and found Meet Joe Black to be on. I haven't seen this movie in ages, so thought I'd give it another shot today. Not to mention the fact that Brad Pitt isn't so bad to look at. Anyhow there was a very insignificant line in the movie that struck a chord with me, "...I chose you because you've led a first-rate life." A first-rate life .. something we're all subconsciously striving for. That made me think about everything all of us have achieved so far in our lives -- whether it's a career achievement, something to do with school, our personal lives, or just being able to maintain a decent lifestyle. Something so small and trivial to one person, can mean the world to another. I love that.

Actually I'm not sure what I'm trying to say in my journal except that .. being grateful for what we are capable of accomplishing is something that can be easily looked over, but shouldn't.

haahah and now a commercial --VIVA VIAGRA -- ask your doctor if your heart is healthy enough for sex. WOW I think that's the funniest commercial I've seen in a long while. Alright time to start the day. BYE BYE

Thoughts...

Thu, 08 May 2008 04:35:15 GMT

Do you ever feel like you're slowly falling apart? Sorry, this entry isn't meant to be an emo one, but rather something to ponder. I often think about myself and the people around me, and it seems like so many people are never quite satisfied with anything. I don't know what it is or what has caused this contagious phenomenon. Ofcourse you wouldn't stop to think in the middle of falling apart that your life feels like it's crumbling. It usually happens when the storm passes, and you recap on the events that have occurred. Are we really happy with how things have worked out? What is it that we exactly want? And why is it we have such a hard time conveying what it is we want? Maybe we're just too young, and we're not suppose to know what we want. But the ride seems like it sure as hell should be a lot smoother. right?

Well that's why it brings me to my next point. People are always saying .. let it go. Never really understood what that exactly meant until I found myself in a situation where I couldn't do anything except to just let it go. Not just letting whatever it was bothering me go, but letting myself go. Sometimes the devil in ourselves gets the best of us, and it's learning to fight it off. That's what I mean by letting it go. Not letting it go to the point where you lose yourself and you're sacrificing in order to sustain ... the status quo. I know how that feels too. I won't speak on behalf of everyone, but if you feel like you know what I'm talking about, then try and just... LET IT GO.

On a turn of a note, let's talk about things that make life worth this one heck of a rollercoster.

I always question my actions, my words, my intentions.. sometimes they're regrettable and sometimes they're so strongly intended I can't think otherwise. But I'll tell you one thing .. what gets me through every single wrong I've done, and every single right I've achieved .. is understanding in the back of my mind that there is ALWAYS someone out there who will understand EXACTLY how you feel, someone out there who will feel the COMPLETE opposite, and someone who is indifferent. That reassures me that we all think differently, and it's really okay to feel whatever it is you're feeling. We're conditioned from experiences to think and act a certain way. It's such an easy concept right? Something you're probably thinking .. well duh, I know that ofcourse! But why is it that friends argue? Relationships fall apart? Parents and children fight? Clearly it's because we're just too freakin hard headed to see any other way but ours. I guess it's somethin similar to ethnocentrism (learned that in anthro ;D).

THAT brings me back to just letting it go. Sometimes some things that are so miniscule .. should just be let go. The person you are arguing with WON'T understand you, and that's okay because we know that everyone is different. This doesn't go for everyone nor everything, especially if you're in a relationship you plan to stay in, because compromise is such a big part of acceptance and sustainability.

I guess what I'm saying is .. some people need to be more open minded, some need to be less stubborn .. and we ALL need to try learning from each other.

Alright -- I believe that is one entry enough for the rest of the month.

P.S. Did you know that random smiling does make your day better? Like my buddy boy Roy said .. "Smiling is one of the sanest things you can do."

The weekend can't come any sooner!

Fri, 18 Apr 2008 00:19:37 GMT

Hellooo alll! I thought I'd do a quick little update before I head out to take my marketing midterm. I had a pretty good day today. Got my schedule for next and LAST semester at CSULB! FINALLYY!! yyessss! I'm really excited to just finish already, but I'll be even more excited when I look forward to applying to grad school! Anyhhooww spent most of the day writing a short paper, studying, playing some DS. OH YEAH! So about a week ago I bought a white DS at Target .. and I gotta say .. I LOVE IT! Okay back to the day .. I had You've Got Mail on the whole time while studying -- one of my favorite romantic comedies of all time. It's on a second run right now, hahaha that's how much I love it. One of my favoriiteee lines:

"If I hadn't been FoxBooks and you hadn't been the Shop Around the Corner... and you and I had, just you know, met... Yeah. I would have asked for your phone number and I wouldn't have been able to wait 24 hours before calling and asking, "How about coffee, drinks, dinner, a movie, .... for as long as we both shall live?"

What a line .. so cheesy, but so good. hahaha. I love Tom Hanks =)

Okay I really wanted to update so I can just put that line up, it deserves some shine. Back to studying! Or DS? I don't know yet. hahaha. BYE!

Adding another line:

"People are always saying change is a good thing, but all they're really saying is that something you didn't want to happen has happened"

Sun, 13 Apr 2008 10:06:02 GMT

Life will give you the exact experiences you need for the evolving of your consciousness.

The best weather for a BEACH DAY!!!!

Sat, 12 Apr 2008 20:19:18 GMT

Hello again! Okay before I begin let me start by sayin

Happy 22nd Birthday Arnold Choi!

So yesterday was my dear friend Arnold Choi's birthday and birthday party. We had a pretty big party over at Sarah's place in LA where pretty much everyone got trashed, self included. The only thing that mattered though was that ARNOLD was trashed, and ofcourse .... job well done all! hahaha. It was a pretty great night just to see everyone together again. The only time we all really get together like that is on these special occasions soooo thank goodness we have great friends! :o) Thank you to Sarah for lending her place out to us and Kevin for really putting the whole thing together.

So the whole shabam really started on Wednesday when Sarah, Kevin, Jeff and I went to Costco where we bought close to $300 worth of booz and snacks. We ended up having to push two shopping carts (one regular shopping cart and one of those long orange carts -- like the ones you see at Home Depot), although it was partly because Sarah and I bought a few things for ourselves. Anyway for the party we got a bottle of Grey Goose, Patron, three packs of beer, and just a bunch of other snacks. AND that wasn't even enough! We actually had to make an alcohol run at Ralphs during the middle of the party yesterday. Sooo I know I know, we're definitely a bunch of crazy little alcoholics hahaha. BUT don't worry .. we all took care of each other and drove responsibly ;D

The night of the party consisted of some dominos pizza, some beer pong, a few birthday shots with the birthday boy, smash brothers, and just some good old catchin' up convos. All in all it was a good party, and I'm sure birthday boy had the TIME OF HIS LIFE. =D

On to newer things .. didja know that it is over 90 degrees today?! I am seriously dying to go to the beach, but everyone is so damn busy! I'm about to just head over there by myself. Yanno grab some albertacos, french fries, my magazines, and just go lay out in Huntington. What a waste of a day if it's not spent at the beach. Rawr! K fine I'm exaggerating hahaha. If I don't go to the beach today I'm gonna clean my room, cuz you know .. it REALLY needs a good cleanin'.

Alright time to get dressed, bye bye!

Not a very good back-from-spring-break day!

Tue, 08 Apr 2008 04:23:25 GMT

OH MAN! I just took two rather difficult midterms today. I thought it would be better to have tests AFTER spring break, but I was wrong. Even though I studied a fairly good amount, I forgot a lot of things we learned IN lecture from the weeks before spring break -- and that probably killleddd me on the tests. It didn't even matter what I studied out of the book. BLAH! It's okay though, it's done, so I'm moving on. Anyhow even though the most stressful part of the week is over, I still have a 3-pager to do tonight and then another paper that is due on Thursday. The 3-pager is extra credit, so I'm still debating whether I should do it or not, but it's probably a good idea to do it since I'm probably gonna need it. Yep!

Anyway, aren't you guys excited for the new shows coming up?!
Grey's Anatomy - APRIL 24 @ 9pm
Desperate Housewives - APRIL 10 @ 8pm

I'm kind of sad because I think Cashmere Mafia is gonna be canceled, and I REALLY loved that show! =(
Still waiting for more private practice!

the long awaited entry

Mon, 07 Apr 2008 05:32:54 GMT

ALRIGHT I'm back for a little bit. A little recap of my spring break.

Monday - Went bowling at Linbrook with Jeff, Judy, and Arnold -- then Denny's
Tuesday - Went to south coast, bought a dress .. went to boomers but didn't stay because we got there late .. ate at rubios and then went to play at D&Bs @ Irvine spec.
Wednesday - Went to Chino with Jeff, Ray, Reggie, and Jon to visit Catherine. Played Cranium - failed miserably again. I'm just NOT good at the game . DAMN IT.
Thursday - Went to San Diego -- Balboa Park, stayed at the Hilton, ate at Fleming's steakhouse, went to the bars at DT SD, got a little tipsy.
Friday - San Diego ZOO ... SOOOO FUN!
Saturday - California Adventure! See pictures at photos.google.com/tu.jessica and then at night went to get foot massages with Cat, Ray, Kevin, Sarah, and Arnold in San Gabriel!
Sunday - STUDIED.

Alright so overall it was a satisfying spring break. I had fun for the most part, some other parts I could've done without. It's really hard to get back into the school mode now .. and I can tell just by my attempts to study today. I have two midterms tomorrow and I don't feel AS confident as I normally would. But it should be okay because I have all day tomorrow to study. It's just hard to set my brain back into school when all I've been doing is PLAYING! No regrets though, I mean that's what spring break is about right? It's a BREAK. Jeez.

Thoughts for the week ... I've been having this weird .. anxiety-like feeling recently. I think it's the whole not knowing what I'm gonna do after college thing. Plus I'm really starting to get worried that I won't find a job for the summer. I feel like it's SOO impossible to work anywhere right now. Actually I guess it's not a weird feeling, I seem to be getting this every now and then much more recently .. it's probably normal for being a senior in college.

My brother's birthday is this Tuesday! Hopefully we get to do something fun.

Okay I really don't have much else to say. Here are some pictures in case you don't get through everything on my picasa photos.

Mid-weekend -- but the start of a new phase to a few =)

Sun, 23 Mar 2008 07:42:05 GMT

Hello everyone, how are you all doing tonight?

*ahhh* man .. what a week. First, before I say anything, I gotta say

Congrats to Jeff and Reggie to graduating! Four years of college - DONEZO!

It is sooo amazing how fast time zooms past. Today we spent our last day at the Irvine house. I sure as heck don't share as many memories there as everyone else, but for the amount of times I have been there, it was still really hard to see the rooms slowly clear out. It felt like everyone was packing up their college lives and moving onto the real world. Boxes and bags were filled with memories they've gathered there over the past three years. The scent of youth rested in every piece of furniture, clothing, bedding, and even the doorstep. Even seeing the smallest, most completely useless bits of accessories that once rested on the drawers cleaned up and gone left a note of heartache. That *beep beep beep* every time the front door opened and closed, once annoying, will now be a reminiscent sound of every person who walked in and out of that house.
I think my first time at the Irvine house was close to two years ago. That one GLORIOUS evening when I took 16 shots of whatever it was, threw up like no other, but admittedly it was the best drunken memory I've ever had. I still remember that sense of comfort stepping into the house. It must've been because of all the madness going on, the excitement of all sorts of people from Cerritos high and Whitney high -- don't hate you wildcats! hahaha, and just the anticipation of what was coming that night. I probably spent most of my time at the house a part of last year and this year, for obvious reasons and most of the best memories made all came from that period of time ... again for obvious reasons. =) Not only that, I really had the chance to meet and become friends with a new group of great people. A group of people who made me wonder how I didn't meet them sooner when we all lived in the same city for probably our entire lives. I guess that's why it was so easy to get along with everyone, it's that "Cerritos" thing that everyone has in common. It's inexplainable, but nonetheless existent.
Anyway, I can only write what I've heard and seen, only the people who have lived at the Irvine house can really tell you what was going through their minds the last few days they were there. So this entry is to everyone who ever walked into that house, cheers!

Yep, that one drunken night

Thu, 20 Mar 2008 07:36:20 GMT

I know it's only about midnight, but for some reason I feel like I'm up lllatteee tonight. Maybe it's because I told myself I would sleep earlier, but kept dragging it out. Anyway I uploaded a bunch of my pictures on photos.google.com/tu.jessica <- so go take a lookie. I'll be uploading some more if space permits. Ummm so we got a mini shnauzer the other day (pics on google) .. she's SUPER cute and very playful, but unfortunately we won't be keeping her. She's a little too active for my grandma to handle, but my mom LOVES the dog. Kinda sucks .. I think maybe if my mom and I were home more often, we'd be able to keep her, but since I have school and my mom has work .. it's really difficult. HOWEVER, I really really really want a maltipoo or a pomeranian again. Soo if I happen to find a cute one, I just might get it!

GOOOSSSHH do you ever think . .damn what ? why? whhhhaaaa blllaaa! hahahaha what happened? I don't know. It just happened. I'm tired dude .. okay need to sleep. GOOD NIGHT

Study break

Wed, 19 Mar 2008 00:40:27 GMT

Alright I'm taking little journal update break from my already delayed studying time. Let's see .. lots went on this weekend, so just to brief you in lemme just say ...

Happy 22nd Birthday to Laurie and Hannah!!!

Even though those two don't know each other hahhaa they're both wonderful friends of mine =)

So Friday night we went to Ra sushi bar and restaurant in Torrance for Laurie's birthday dinner. The sushi rolls were DEFINITELY ... interesting. I found it to be pretty good, but everyone else thought it was just tooo much of a weird mix hahaha. Well I did get a roll that had cream cheese, smoked salmon, mango, kiwi, and scallops. It really wasn't that bad! Anyhow after the dinner .. headed to the bar where we did two sake bombs, drank some liqor here and there .. got a little buzzed (though Laurie got a little TRASHED hhahaha) .. good times good times. Anyywaaayyy Saturday morning a small group of us went to eat at a restaurant at the Ritz Carlton in Laguna Niguel. The site was beauutifull but the food was so-so. It was still nice though since most of the people who went have never been to the hotel before. =) Saturday night we celebrated Hannah's birthday at Sarah's house -- theme: Mystery Murder! SOOOOOO FUN! It was basically an adult version of CLUE .. where we were all assigned characters, dressed up like our characters, and tried to figure out who murdered the victim throughout the night. I'll have pictures up of all three events. so no worries. =)

Alright seriously gotta get back to work. BYE!

"You have four years to be irresponsible here. Relax. Work is for people with jobs. You'll never remember class time, but you'll remember time you wasted hanging out with your friends. So, stay out late. Go out on a Tuesday with your friends when you have a paper due Wednesday. Spend money you don't have. Drink 'til sunrise. The work never ends, but college does..." - TOM PETTY

Thursday BLOODY Thursday

Thu, 13 Mar 2008 20:29:34 GMT

Okay I did another round of applications to various companies today, actually only two. I applied to Lucille's BBQ in Cerritos and Merrill Lynch. Totally different jobs, but man I am so desperate -- I am ACHING to work and make some cash. Anyhow today is gonna be a verryyy good day, I think. Took a quiz in management today which I TOTALLY did not study for and still managed to get a 40/50 on it hahaha. Umm spent the entire time in anthro applying to the two jobs. Then, tonight all I have is marketing and then off to Irvine I go!

I'm really looking forward to this weekend. There's a lot of crazy events going on, lots of good food, and I get to spend time with ALL my good friends =) BUT then again, I gotta get cracking on studying again because I have a few more exams coming up in the next two weeks. BLAH. It's okay though, shouldn't be too hard.

Mmmm okay I'm in class right now so maybe I shouldn't write so much. OH! I'll post some OLD SCHOOL pictures since I only have like old pictures on my laptop. Okay enjoy! BYE!

At Universal Studios Boston!

Weekend Recap

Mon, 10 Mar 2008 22:03:10 GMT

Hello everyone! I am finally back home from a long weekend in Vegas! It was definitely a vacation needed and thankfully everything we did there lived up to my every expectations. We didn't do anything extra special, but for some reason it was just fun. We got there Thursday night around 230am, walked over to TI and ate a late night dinner, ended up crashing around 6am (by the way we crashed around 6am and woke up before sunset pretty much the whole weekend). The next day we woke up, had lunch, and headed straight to Fat Tuesdays at Caesars Palace. Everyone got pretty buzzed/drunk. It's such a great experience to be able to walk around public in the middle of the day being buzzed hahaha. Anyway, went to Pure that night and Tao the following -- both were very nice, though Tao was slightly better. The rest of the time we gambled, walked around, or just chilled at the Venetian (where our hotel was). We stayed there for a total of four days and three nights .. left Sunday afternoon. Now .. I'm ready to go back to Vegas again. hahaha. so let's go! =)

I can't believe it's Monday already, definitely not ready to go back to school. I feel like I was just on spring break or something. Actually I've gotta head out in about ten minutes and spend the rest of the night on campus. I'll have class until about 9ish bla bla bla. It's fine though, sometimes accounting and statistics can be somewhat amusing if I force myself to think that way. It feels good when I understand what the professors are talking about and then when the person next to me is completely lost .. I just laugh to myself inside. HAHAHA jk jk. I'm not that cruel, but it's like having a epiphany each time I actually understand whatever the hell it is I'm learning.

Speaking of learning .. today I learned, once again, to just stop pushing-pulling-dragging-forcing. You know when you want everything to be so perfect, you try to force it to be, but then once you've slowed down and realized whatever it is you're doing only makes things worse .. ya start to think what are you doing?! This happens a lot when I get ahead of myself, start thinking in too much of an ideal way, or expect too much. Why am I who I am .. good question. To tell you the truth, I don't know .. still tryna figure it out. hahaha. As far as I'm concerned though, it feels sooooo good when I can stop and tell myself to just relax, it feels even better when I catch myself before getting off the tracks. So THAT'S what I've been learning to do. And this just brings me back to what I love to say ...

"There are no shortcuts to any place worth going"

So for those of you who are feelin' me .. take my it from someone who has plenty of experience from it. Slow down, let it be, but don't give up because you know whatever it is you've been struggling and fighting for will only lead to somewhere beyond your imagination. =) Alright I'm one minute past my schedule! Have a super lovely day, enjoy what's left of the sunshine, be good. Oh yeah! Let me leave you a few Vegas pictures.

Loves and doves
Jess

The MADNESS

Thu, 06 Mar 2008 08:23:26 GMT

So today was quite an eventful day.

Woke up at 11 - went to help mother at the store
Ran an errand at the bank
Went to the gym
Costco
Grandmother to the doctors
dinner with Kevin, Sarah, and Arnold
Kevin's house

Although it was a LITTLE hectic, I felt really good today. Very carefree and careless .. I didn't really care what was going on around me .. kinda like that "take what each day gives you" feelin'. Hahah I'm not really sure if that's a good thing, but for once I didn't think about it. Maybe I'm just getting ready for my four day Vegas vacation! I'm really looking forward to just relaxing, clubbing, gambling, and our VENETIAN SUITES! mmmmm Anyhows..

I don't really have any thoughts today. Yesterday night I watched Hitch .. and totally forgot what an incredibly great movie that was. My favorite part is in the beginning, when Will says "One moment you're enjoying life, and the next you're wondering how you ever lived without them." I always get that kind of feeling either at the beginning of relationships (yanno the whole "chase" part) or when something totally out of the ordinary happens and you just feel completely content with everything. Mmm those are the good old times. Okay but other than the lovey dovey part of the movie, I forgot how funny it was too! I swear I laughed sooo much yesterday, and I've seen this movie about a dozen times. I'm crazy.

Oh! Actually I do have something on my mind. I realized today that I have to change a few things in my life. Well, I won't get into it now .. maybe later when I'm less tired and a little more rational. =) So until then, good night friends. If I don't write tomorrow .. have a fantabulous weekend!

Things on my mind

Wed, 05 Mar 2008 00:17:35 GMT

This week must be going by really slow for me because it feels like Wednesday, but it's only Tuesday! I am sooooooo tired and I have no idea why. Although yesterday ... or this morning rather .. I woke up to two really bad dreams. I hate when I have dreams that affect the way you feel when you wake up, yanno what I mean? It feels so real that you start to question reality. RAWR! I just hate bad dreams overall.

Anyway, I'm so glad today is done with. I can just relax for the rest of the night, relax tomorrow, and then off to Vegas on Thursday!!! YAY!

So my thoughts of the day

I think I wasted a good amount of the advantages of being 21. Although I did go to Vegas a few times, a few clubs, a few bars .. never would I have imagined I would be where I am today. I remember I use to think that when I turned 21 I'd go NUTS. Party all time, lived a super carefree life, bla bla bla .. but it totally didn't turn out the way I had imagined. I mean it's not a bad thing, in some ways I'm glad I didn't live that super party life. I'm able now to prioritize what's important, realize what I need to do now in order to achieve a better future, and stay close to REAL friends who also don't need that party life to have a good time. But once in a blue moon I just think what it would've been like to be on the other side of the world. Sometimes I wish I could've made 21 more memorable. What am I sayin' though?! All in all, at the end I realize that it wasn't what I didn't do .. but what I ended up doing that made this age and year so wonderful.

Hmmm other things on my mind ...

I realized yesterday that sometimes I am just too generous. I was talkin' to Judy about how the stereotype is that "Chinese people are stingy," which is true for some if not most, and she just happened to mention how I was big exception to that. I don't know what it is. What's funny is I don't even have a job right now, but I just love the thought of being "generous." It's so crazy because I really do notice how money can make someone so happy. Not necessarily money itself, but the things you can buy or do for someone with money. I mean, my mentality is money is meant to be spent . .because in our lives money will come in and so it's meant to go out. I'm not sayin' I'm a terrible spender, my close friends know I tend to manage my money pretty well, but if I can spend a few dolla dollaz (HA) just to make someone feel appreciated, happy, or wanted .. I'm willing to sacrifice that much. I probably think this way mostly because that's the way I was raised. Everyone knows I don't come from the wealthiest family, but even my mom is really generous. She's always taught me to not take money too seriously. As long as you're smart with it, there really is no reason to be too stingy or too generous. Seriously though, I do think sometimes I tend to spend on other people without thinking, so I really gotta start working on that .. at least until I get a job!

Alright, I think that's about enough thoughts for one day and for one person! Go buy girl scout cookies! BYE!

Tue, 04 Mar 2008 10:57:22 GMT

Okay I'm mad because I accidentally clicked something that completely erased my VERY long entry. hahahaha. I hate when that happens. Alright kids, it's 3am .. WAY past my bed time. Here are some excellent quotes I'm leaving you to think about and enjoy. 'Nighty night.

Win as if you were used to it, lose as if you enjoyed it for a change.

Anyone can hate. It costs to love.

Life isn’t worth living unless you’re willing to take some big chances and go for broke.

You only live once, but if you work it right, once is enough.

Good times ahead =)

Mon, 03 Mar 2008 01:13:23 GMT

Back again on a Sunday afternoon. Just finished up my study guide for statistics .. easy peasy.

Let's see .. I woke up around 11:30 today to what I thought was the house heater. Went to turn the heater down and attempt to fall back asleep, but after about 20 minutes, I realized that the heater didn't turn off .. so I got a little worried .. woke up again to see what was going on .. and turns out it was the FAN that was on, not the heater. No wonderrr I was feeling more cold than hot. hahaha.

Anyhow, continued my March fitness madness by doing some morning weights and sit ups and all that good stuff .. took a shower . .bla bla bla. Alright, I'm gonna study some more, pop in another movie, and wait to go eat shabu shabu where Laurie works! YAY!

Okay I really have nothing to talk about today. I'm a little sleepy. Til tomorrow - goodbye.

Sat, 01 Mar 2008 11:18:49 GMT

"There are no shortcuts to any place worth going"

Friday Night

Sat, 01 Mar 2008 05:38:03 GMT

Helloooo all! I'm finally home on Friday night, though about to go out again in about 20 minutes. So my DREADFUL midterms week is FINALLY over -- can't say I felt completely confident on how I did, but hey .. that's life. I can't remember the last time I studied so much. I must've studied for about 8 hours on Wednesday and then another 4 hours on Thursday. I still have one more midterm in statistics on Monday, but not too worried about that. Anyway, I seriously don't know how I'm gonna get a 4.0 this semester, I feel like the harder I try the further away I am from getting it. I'm not tryna justify anything, but it's seriously wrong to have 3 midterms in ONE day. I mean, I'm only able to retain so much information! =( Okay .. I'm done venting. hahaha

So next weekend should be fun! I finally get a mini vacation =) It's really good to be able to get away every now and then .. being couped up here for so long can really drive one person crazy. Those who know me, know that I gotta constantly be up and about or I start worrying my life away. However, I've been trying really hard to be a lot more optimistic lately about my outlook on life. Even though it's a slooww process for me, I notice that it's working. Every time I FEEL like something awful is about to enter my mind, I calm myself down and give myself a few minutes to try and block it out. Usually it works, but sometimes if I'm super stressed out .. it's completely out of my control. Am I just talking jibberish? I hate when things make sense in my head, but I have a hard time conveying it. haahah.

Alright, I am going to head out now. For those of you stressed, worried, or just straight up pooped out . .just believe me when I say .. it's gonna be okay =) I PROMISE.

A bientot kiddos!

Preparing for THREE midterms tomorrow! YAY!!!!!

Thu, 28 Feb 2008 01:40:53 GMT

So today I spent the morning rearranging my room. My desk is no longer against the wall, but is now against the window next to my bed. I think it was a smart move, cuz my room looks much more spacious now. All that rearranging took about two hours .. took a shower .. and hit the books straight after that. Seriously .. putting three midterms all in one day is just not right. It took me about three hours just to study for ONE subject. My head is so full of managerial terms, I don't know how I'm gonna make a transition to anthropology and then ANOTHER transition to marketing. I think I might just save marketing for tomorrow since that midterm is at 7pm.

Okay let me just dedicate this entry to my Lulu. The pomeranian that has been apart of our family for three and a half years was put down Monday morning due to kidney failure. Although everyone is pretty sad, I must say I've been handling the whole situation better than I thought. Maybe because she had been sick for so long now that I kind of knew it was coming sooner or later, plus I know she's in a much better place now .. probably meeting up with Coco! =) Anyway .. RIP LULU TANG! i love you.